Beau Is Afraid (2023)

Zoe Lister-Jones: Young Mona

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• Young Mona : He died on our wedding night. The same night you were conceived. He died the very instant you were conceived.

  Boy Beau : How?

  Young Mona : By finishing. Into me. He had a heart murmur, just like you.

  Boy Beau : Did it hurt?

  Young Mona : I'm sure it was excruciating. It was the first time we made love. The first time either of us made love with anyone. Your grandpa and your great-grandpa died the same way. But he thought he might be different. I'm just as guilty. I urged him on. I wanted a normal life. I wanted a child. He died on top of me. Inside. I think about it and I want to rip my ears off. But then... but then that same trauma, which changed me so utterly, also resulted in the greatest gift of my life. I am so sorry for what your daddy passed down to you. I can't tell you how sorry I am.