If Only I

I caught this short documentary on TV about 15 minutes in, but what I had witnessed was the most emotionally compelling picture I've seen. It follows a young woman, previously homeless and always in-and-out of mental hospitals all her life, who has just recovered from a suicide attempt. Unfortunetely, she was limited to a wheelchair and unavoidable scars all throughout her body.

A man, who himself is not so far above this woman in caste, ends up taking her in. For her own survival she allows him to force himself upon her sexually. We see in a five-minute real time interview with her, what this and her scaring childhood has done to her dignity.

I fell in love with this film even though I only caught half of it. By far the most hard-to-take, yet human, aspect of this film is her interview on why she is what she is. What is so depressing about this film is that after watching it, you will feel, as I did, that she is hopeless. And you know that she will not last long in this world of ours, full of rapists, exploiters, and neglecters. I don't know where this woman is today, but I am almost sure that she has not gotten too far. I recommend this to all who seek a more advanced appreciation for their own lives, but warn that you will lose much respect for the society we live in.