When I was 19 years old, I tried to end my life after competing at Miss Utah USA and it was the second time I tried competing. I was already struggling with my mental health. But I had spent so much of that year really trying to become something that I wasn't. I had gone and gotten plastic surgery, my eating disorder was at its worst and I was just not in a good place. And when I still didn't win after trying to become something I wasn't, it crushed me. I just didn't want to be here anymore.
